The Girl

She is the most complete picture in my class. I have set hyr every (clothed) element to memory, including her hair, on the back of her neck, bordered by red beret and red hoodie. She has "a large apartment", as well as space to create hyr woks of art; mostly industrial/product design, and now carpentry. She has dreams to build green, and she dwells on them. She has onn'a them there impish smiles I've only seen on Theresa - it'll suck out your heart, and you won't even notice, but then it belongs to hyr. Once again, the conversation seems slow ... it either doesn't work, or one (or both) of us is just not open yet. She has now opened up contact, and I want to push it farther. I don't really know what I'm doing, and I'll be the first to admit it. And I'm nervous. I have had unconventional relationships before, but it always makes me nervous to feel a person out - always wondering whether they like me, and what they will expect me to do. For now, I just wait. 3 months left. Not quite half over yet. Still time to go out for dinner, teach hyr to skate (then giver a hockey stick!) and ... well, maybe spend some time doing other things too. Wow. Here's praying.

Opinions

Oral Sex.
*Note: I have buried this deep in my blog. The date is totally incorrect. But I had to post this somehow.
A kid talked about this in class today. Trying to get this kid who is as white and naive as all get out to talk about anything less than the purest vanilla. It's almost disgusting how sheltered this kid is. To think I was once that way. Some people though, are so pure and goody-goody that they will never get out of that phase though. Probably like him.
Anyway.
Even though I wasn't asked the question, I'm gonna answer it anyway, as if I was the one asked it. "What do you think of oral sex?" It depends on the taste. And gender. And who does who. And what happens before and afterwards. As long as your partner is very clean (I'm talking about good hygiene here), free of disease, and you practice safe (oral) sex, it's all good!

Taste: if your partner's taste is not to your liking, use a lube or flavored condom ... lube is good for the grrls and the guys. Usually heavy meat eaters are much more salty tasting, and vegans ... well, they just taste better!

Gender: having been with males and (a) femyle, there are different complications and situations that arise. I prefer womyn; to celebrate one is much better and more rewarding, to me at least.

Who does who: Never been in a 69; it's always been consecutive, but for that specifically, I prefer giving to receiving. Maybe I just haven't yet met a talented enough tongue!

B4 & After: If everything is mutual, great! If only one person gets to cum, not good, unless, of course, that is okay with the person not cumming. I prefer oral as one element of a routine!

Free of Disease: the reason is a given, but how do you find out? Ask to see a doctor's record? Just "trust" them? I don't know.

Safe Sex: on guys, that would be a condom, on grrls, latex gloves and potentially sran wrap over the area in question is usually good, as far as I know.

Last of all, what do I think about it? Well, given that it has to be in a relationship, (I need onna them things first, I don't do one-nighters) bring it on! I'd love more!

Family Matters

Yes, one of the largest, and most dealt with issues of the world. Family. How do you deal with them? The black sheep, the money obsessed so&so, the angel, the devil, all the normal people just trying to hash out a living on the sidelines, etc.

I was thinking today, if everyone in families liked each other, or was at least mature enought to get along, can you imagine how much more of a peaceful world this would be? So much of the world's human to human violence comes through in families.

People giving up, growing cold, chasing after money like they don't have enough, blaming others, and DON'T even get me started on all those who decide to pass judgement based on who someone else in the family falls in love with! -- I mean "control freaks" NEone?

Maybe I shouldn't cast the first stone until I can ensure I am, and ever will be, guilt-free myself. Maybe I should forgive and turn the other cheek. Or maybe I can just call a spade a spade. Cause there's rarely any water more full of iron than blood, or nothing spills thicker than blood, or something. What's that cliche saying again? ;)

You get my point.

Racism: Alive and Well

One thing I do know is true.
Words can start wars. Civil wars.
Like Bill Bennet postulating on a radio show with over one million listeners about the fact that if all black children were aborted, American crime rate would go down.

So, has America found a scapegoat now? They can just blame the blacks for America's crime rate; and if their children were all aborted, the crime rate would go down. The whites like Bennet in America simply believe that they are perfect beings, and America is perfect. "Oh what's that?" they ask us; "you're starting to find fault in America, and who we are and what we do? Okay. We will deflect that bad image on those of our citizens who we believe to be inferior, and we as white Americans will still be perfect!"

This is disgusting! Bennet has just made a huge pro-Aryan comment; a huge statement that he believes the blacks are responsible for the crime rate in America. Think about what you just said, Bennet! Do you think, no matter what you meant, that this comment will go unnoticed? NO!! You're going to now have hundreds of people from all cultures demanding your head on a platter! How dare you?

Civil war.
If the American system of world domination and oppression was overthrown, that would be akin to opening a casket that is no longer guarded, and finding it full of poisionous, toxic cockroaches. Let's expose America to the world. Let the world judge America, and let humanity deal out its justice.

Who keeps you in Check, America? When you are at the top of the world, no-one has the power to tell you that you are doing something wrong. You are becoming a monopoly. You are becoming a hot-bed for hatred. The world is slowly turning against you, as you are festering in your own hatred, and passing on judgements against entire cultures, entire populations within your country.
Bill Bennet is just another voice in your choir.

BENNETT: ... one of the arguments in this book Freakonomics that they make is that the declining crime rate, you know, they deal with this hypothesis, that one of the reasons crime is down is that abortion is up. Well --
CALLER: Well, I don't think that statistic is accurate.
BENNETT: Well, I don't think it is either, I don't think it is either, because first of all, there is just too much that you don't know. But I do know that it's true that if you wanted to reduce crime, you could -- if that were your sole purpose, you could abort every black baby in this country, and your crime rate would go down. That would be an impossible, ridiculous, and morally reprehensible thing to do, but your crime rate would go down. So these far-out, these far-reaching, extensive extrapolations are, I think, tricky.


The Media Matters website has the entire conversation in context.